New World...

When I first saw u,

You were just a passerby

But gradually i realized,

You were someone for whom i cud die...

You came in my life,

Became a part of my soul'

Then dumped me as some trash;

Now my heart has a big hole...

You said the cupid had struck you,

he day you first saw me.

Then what happened later on?

Have your feelings suddenly gone?

We started as strangers

Became friends, then soulmates...

Now all this is past

I should have known nothing will last...

You dont deserve me.

Don't deserve my trust

You were such a liar, and so fake;

Your love's disappeared into dust.

Without you nothing's right.

Everything seems upside down.

Its a new world, I have to deal

Lonely, is the world I feel....

My Best Friend VI

They say love never happens for a reason… It just happens….Its not important for the person you love to be handsome,  intelligent or humourous, for all you know he could be a complete jerk, but still there is something in him, something that you end up falling for. The way he smiles at you, or out of the blue when he is staring at you, every compliment that he gives you or when he finds silly reason just to call you. He would say the stupidest thing in the world and it would seem absoloutely cute to you. You maybe having the worst day of your life and seeing him would change everything.

They say Love is blind…But I don’t believe it. I believe Love is not blind, it only sees what matters. Your shape, size or color don’t always count. But something else does. I think Love does has a reason but that reason is always undefined.

So when I fell for Sam (Sameer), I didn’t fall for his super-cute smile or his amazing body; I fell for something else. Something that I can’t really put in words. When I first met him, I felt an instant connection with him. Am not sure if I have mentioned this before but I met Sameer at British Council, four years ago. We were both forcefully enrolled there for an advanced creative writing course by our parents. It was a class of 32 boys and I was the only girl there. 32 handshakes during the introducion session, but  just one out of them was different, strangely the touch felt familiar. Who knew, a few years down the line, it would become impossible fo me to live without that ‘familiar touch’.

Sam wasn’t exactly perfect though, he came in with his own set of shortcomings, but like I already mentioned ,they hardly mattered. So what if he never gave me any gifts, I guess having him in my life was my biggest gift. We couldn’t meet often but then, whenever we met, every moment lasted a lifetime. He never introduced me to any of his friends, but so what, he completed my world, I never needed anyone else. He never gave me any reason to trust him, but then he never gave a reason to doubt him. So what if he was not exactly the guy of my dreams, he was the guy with whom I was living my dreams and what could be better than that.

Don't tell me who I am...

.

I’m a liar because I wont tell you everything

I’m stupid because sometimes I'm wrong

I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect

I’m a pushover because I like making people happy

I’m a loser because I’m a not friend with your group

I’m fake because I’m too nice

I’m weird because I’m not like you

I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry.

I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone

I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me.

I’m no fun because I'm not always hyper?

Don’t try to tell me who I am

Because I already know...

My Best Friend V

"If you had to choose between me and Sameer, who would you choose?", he asked.

We were on our way back from Khan Market and Jai chose to come in my car, even though it would take him double the usual time to reach home. We were a little drunk, mostly quiet and held each-others hand throughout the way. He was hungry and so we were heading to CP.

"Well, what if someday Sameer asks you to choose between me and him, whom would you choose? Who is more important to you?", he said reframing his question after I gave him a what the hell are you saying look.

"I love you both, I can never choose between you two. Sameer knows you're my best friend Jai, and nobody in this world can take your place, but he is equally important in my life and my life would be incomplete without him", I replied.

I knew I was being diplomatic, but I was just saying the truth. I couldn't believe it, my best friend was asking me to choose between him and my boyfriend.

I loved them both way too much to ever let them go for anyone else.

"Now hurry up, you just have half an hour to eat. I don't want to get late for home", I said as the car pulled up in front of Mc Donalds,

We got out of the car and he held my hand again.

"You go take a seat, I will order. You wanna have something?", he asked.

"Ice-cream", I said with a huge smile.

He went to order and I started looking for an empty table. Couldn't find any so I asked a couple if we could share their table, thankfully they agreed. Our seats were adjacently placed but we turned them to face each other. 

"You know I really care for you", he said sitting comfortably and locking his legs into mine," Now, I know you are in a relationship and I am not saying he is bad, I am just saying be careful. Don't trust him blindly, somehow I am not too sure about him."

Shit! is my best friend jealous of my boyfriend, I thought and smiled.

"You are smiling; I am serious Tara", he said looking into my eyes.

"Yes I know, and don't worry I will be careful", I replied acting serious this time, "now hurry up, we are getting late."

We finished our food quickly, got up and started walking towards the metro station.

"Wait, don't go right now. Please spend some more time with me", he said stopping me.

So we rested on the railings, he held me by my waist and we talked for another half an hour. We talked about everything under the sun from our friendship to our fights. That half an hour with him was one of the best times we had shared together. He slaped me lightly for everytime I had fought with him and quickly covered up by a planting a kiss on my cheek. He knew exactly what would make me smile and what would make me angry. And so he played with me, said something stupid to irritate me and then said something so cute that I couldn’t help but smile at him. Amidst all this we didn’t even realise that people were staring at us and I was already half-an-hour late.

"I love you", he said pulling me for a last hug and kissing me on both my cheeks.

"I love you too", I said returning the due and moving back towards the car, while he went into the metro station.

It was one of those days that I would never forget in my life. Memories that I would hold on forever. I don't know what the future holds for both of us, but I know whether or not we stay together in the later years, he would always remain my best friend.