"So do you think, all this while I have been a good friend?" I asked.
"Ummm, I don't know. You tell me, do you think all this while you have been a good friend?" Jai replied.
It was one of our house parties night and we were sitting on the terrace. Both of us were a little drunk. We hadn't spent a lot of time together lately, and there was lot I had to tell him. There were things that I was even hiding from myself.
I lay my head on his lap, "There is something I have been wanting to tell you from a while. There is something wrong with me, its like, I open my books to study and Sam's face appears out of nowhere; I concentrate harder and the words jumble up to form his name. And it doesn't stop here Jai, he is just everywhere. Where I go, whatever I think, he is there, he never leaves me."
"Shit, you love that guy...Like you really really love him..!! How did that happen Tara? I always thought you guys were not serious, I thought it was more of a passing affair", he replied.
"It was, it always was and it still is. We know we don't have a future together but at its about living the present than caring about the times ahead. Everything was sorted, but now, all of a sudden it feels like I won't be able to live without him. I have created a mess and I don't know how to get out of it", I said while a tear rolled down my right eye.
"So now what are you going to do", he said wiping my tear.
"I don't know, I think I will do what I always do when I reach at this point with Sam. I will break-up with him", I replied.
"No, absolutely no, this is not right. You can't keep running from your own feelings", he said holding my hand, "why don't you tell him how you feel."
"No, telling him how I feel would make things more complicated, and none of us are prepared for that. So either I continue with him the way it is going on and keep suffering from inside or I break up and let him suffer", I replied.
"I guess you should do what keeps you happy", he said.
"Thats the problem, as cliché as it may sound, my happiness now lies with him" I replied hugging Jai and in no time, I fell asleep in his embrace.
"Ummm, I don't know. You tell me, do you think all this while you have been a good friend?" Jai replied.
It was one of our house parties night and we were sitting on the terrace. Both of us were a little drunk. We hadn't spent a lot of time together lately, and there was lot I had to tell him. There were things that I was even hiding from myself.
I lay my head on his lap, "There is something I have been wanting to tell you from a while. There is something wrong with me, its like, I open my books to study and Sam's face appears out of nowhere; I concentrate harder and the words jumble up to form his name. And it doesn't stop here Jai, he is just everywhere. Where I go, whatever I think, he is there, he never leaves me."
"Shit, you love that guy...Like you really really love him..!! How did that happen Tara? I always thought you guys were not serious, I thought it was more of a passing affair", he replied.
"It was, it always was and it still is. We know we don't have a future together but at its about living the present than caring about the times ahead. Everything was sorted, but now, all of a sudden it feels like I won't be able to live without him. I have created a mess and I don't know how to get out of it", I said while a tear rolled down my right eye.
"So now what are you going to do", he said wiping my tear.
"I don't know, I think I will do what I always do when I reach at this point with Sam. I will break-up with him", I replied.
"No, absolutely no, this is not right. You can't keep running from your own feelings", he said holding my hand, "why don't you tell him how you feel."
"No, telling him how I feel would make things more complicated, and none of us are prepared for that. So either I continue with him the way it is going on and keep suffering from inside or I break up and let him suffer", I replied.
"I guess you should do what keeps you happy", he said.
"Thats the problem, as cliché as it may sound, my happiness now lies with him" I replied hugging Jai and in no time, I fell asleep in his embrace.
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