My Best Friend XII

I couldn't sleep for a minute that night, and neither could I stop my tears. What I left in that party that evening was an irreplaceable part of my life. Someone who meant the world to me. Someone who taught me the real meaning of friendship, someone who was more than a friend to me, way more than a friend. I had a weird pain in my chest, I wanted to shout out loud. I wanted to hug him one last time, just one last time. But I knew I couldn't do any of it.


Sometimes it just takes a moment for friendship to change into love, or maybe to realize that what you thought was friendship, was actually love all along. The moment I saw him with another girl, I knew my first love was not Sam. But it was too late, I had already lost him, my first love, Jai.
You can call me orthodox, but I believe love only happens once. Surely Sam was wonderful guy, he kept me happy but unfortunately he was not the one I loved. I didn't want to lie to him anymore, I didn't want to lie to myself either.


I read somewhere, we can never get over our first love. He always has a part of our heart, even if we don't want him to. So I broke up with Sam and I told him the truth. Unlike everytime I broke up with him,  he took it all well this time. Said he understood me. He said he always knew Jai was more than a friend to me.


There are not always happy endings, some endings are disastrous. They break you, tear your heart apart and teach you, that life is not always a fairytale, sometimes there are no castles, no prince charming but you still have to move on.
I still see Jai in college, though we don't talk. He broke up with Riya a week after that party, admitted it was a big mistake. Sam and I are best friends now, he is dating a girl called Maya. They are kinda perfect for each other. And as for me, I am still single and there is nothing I regret about it, infact I totally love it.

Things that keep me up all night...

So u think u know me....Be ready to be surprised...

So you see me everyday and you think you know me. But I am not that simple a mystery to solve. The truth is I am incredibly awkward and negative. At times I give up too easily and don't even care to fight back. I don't like opening up to people, I am shy in front of strangers. I can't stand it if anybody holds a grudge against me. Most five yr olds can express their feelings better then me. I never cry in front of anyone, I hide behind my fake smiles. I am scared of getting hurt and terrified of being alone. I tend to act older than I am. I get attached to easily and hold on for too long. I am probably one of the most difficult person you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I am a great listener. I will never back stab. I will guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you on your mistakes. I will motivate you whenever you are down. I will never let you give up. I will there for you whenever you need me. I value friendship more than anything in this world. I will be the best friend to you, if you are one to me.

My Best Friend XI

The five of us (Adi, surya, Cliffy, Rahul and me) got in line for second our tequila shot. On a count of 3 just when the burning liquor flowed down our throat, I heard a familiar sound from behind us. It had been 2 hour since the party had started, and I had been waiting from him all along.
"So you guys started without me", Jai said in a mocking tone.
"Ohh no man, we were just warming up...Its my birthday after all!", Adi replied. Anybody could guess from his voice, he was already light.
"You are forgiven birthday boy, and I am sorry I am late. Actually it wasn't exactly my fault", and with that Jai put an arm around the girl standing next to him," meet my girl, Riya.", he said.
Everybody was shocked. But I was way more than shocked, I didn't know how to react. I had like a mini speech written in advance and practiced like a million times in front of the mirror, but not in my wildest dreams had I imagined that he would get a girl. A girl who had a figure to die for, long silky hair and a not a single mark on her face. Just what Jai always wanted in his girlfriend, features exactly opposite to mine.
I was so busy in my thoughts that I never realised when the formal introduction began. It was already my turn but before I could say something, she did.
"Oh, so you are Tara!" she said, all excited.
"Ummm, ya I am Tara. Nice to meet you", I replied you.
"I was dying to meet the girl whose photo my boyfriend carries in his wallet", she said and gave me a strange look, "though now its replaced with mine. He told you guys are best friends."
"Ya, we are best friends. We have always been so close and from as long as I remember, we both have had a pic of each other in our wallets. I stole one of his old school pic in which he looks like a nerd and he stole an extremely funny one of mine. I still remember when he took mine, he told me,"this ways I will never lose you, I will always have you in my pocket"", I told her the story.
"Ohh, I would love to see that pic of his", she said," can you please give it to me!"
"Sorry I can't, not that I don't want to, I just don't have it anymore. I lost my wallet which had his photo", I lied.
I left the party after some time. I don't know what the real problem was, maybe without my best friend I was feeling lonely or maybe because I couldn't bear to see him enjoying with someone else. Riya is a nice girl, perfect for him and I should be happy for him, but for some reason I wasn't. 
I could see his eyes fixed on me while I was leaving the party, maybe he was waiting for a goodbye. But what he didn't realize was that somehow in these few days the distance between us had grown so much, that keeping any expectations from each other hence-forth would be wrong. That night we bid our final goodbyes to each other as bestfriends.

Sometimes...

Sometimes even tears are not enough to express the sorrow within...

Sometimes even the fake smile cannot hide the pain residing in your heart...

Not every happy beginning leads to a happy ending...

Sometimes even the fondest of hearts grow apart.... 

My Best Friend X

I never heard from Jai after that. He never called or messaged. College was going to open in another 3 weeks and I really wanted to meet him once before that. Thankfully friday evening, our common friend, Aditya called to invite me for his birthday party, he told me Jai was also coming.
Meanwhile my relationship with Sam was suffering. It didn't take him long to figure out that something was wrong, that I wasn't my usual self.
"So what did you work on in the gym today?", he asked me one evening.
"I didn't go to the the gym today", I replied.
"Why...Its been a week since you have gone to the gym", he said.
"So what is your problem, its my wish when I want to go. I know I am fat, you don't need to make me realise that by continuously telling me to go the gym. I f you are so ashamed of me, why don't you just leave me.", I shouted back at him.
"What are you saying baby, I am not ashamed of you, never was and never will be. You know I love you, your figure or weight don't matter to me. When I ask you about gym, I only do it because I am concerned about you, your health", he replied with all the patience in the world.
I suddenly realized I was been too harsh on him. I was shouting on him for no reason.
"Ya I know, I am sorry. I didn't mean what I said. I am just a little tensed.", I said feeling sorry.
"I know there is something wrong, and I also know you are not ready to share it right now. Its ok, I will wait. Tell me about it when you feel its the right time, there is no hurry", he replied.
Sam still continues to amaze me. However rude or unjustified my behavior is, he never gives up on me. I guess people are right when they say that there is no limit to which a person can love you.

My Best Friend IX

        There was something special about the night, strangely I woke up with a smile on my lips but a tear in my eye. I had a strange dream. I was running in the woods with Jai, holding his hand and all of a sudden Sam appeared before us. I was happy to see him and started moving towards him. Just as I was about to reach him, I realized I was alone, I turned back and saw Jai standing way behind, telling me to move on. Before I could decide which way to head, my dream broke and I got up. 
        
              Strangely enough, even Jai had a smile on his face. I looked at him, he had a mole right above his lips, after his eyes, his mole was his best feature. I was so busy staring at his mole that I didn't realize when he opened his eyes and his hand reached to tuck the loose strand of hair behind my ear. I looked into his eyes and said, "Good morning". I don't know what happened after that but he leaned in and gently brushed his lips with mine and hugged me hard. I was so stunned for a moment that I just couldn't respond, I just stayed still in his arms. And just when I was about to break from his embrace, my phone rang. I can't explain how awkward did the love story tune sounded at that moment, even more for the fact that we both knew who was calling.
          
            I quickly got up and rushed to the corner of the terrace, "Good morning baby", I said picking up the call.
              "Hey jaan, where have you been, you didn't call last night...", he asked.
           I felt a lump in my throat, "Ohh so sorry, I had a headache so I slept early yesterday", I replied lying.
           
          I hate lying to Sam, but I have learnt that some things are better behind the covers than fully exposed. So even though Sam didn't mind me hanging out with Jai, he sure did mind me drinking and I didn't want to offend him in any way by telling him about the night.
          
            "So are you free today", he asked.
"Ya, I will be ready in about 2 hours, pick me up from the usual spot", I replied.
         "Ok, cya", he said and disconnected.
          
I just couldn't believe what had happened in the past 10 minutes. I turned to face Jai, I had a lot of questions for him, his act surely was unjustified, especially after me telling him how I feel for Sam the last night. But he was not there, he had already left. So with all those questions in my mind, I picked up the keys and drove back home. I wasn't sure how I was going to face Sam, somewhere deep down, I felt like I had let him down.

And you think you have seen it all ?

Its not always enough to plan...

Sometimes we need to let go...

Let the wind take us places...

Places where our imagination has not yet been....

Where the horizon starts...

Or maybe where the shores meet...

Where the adventures begins...

Or the self-discovery ends...

Somewhere, where the skies whisper...

And the waves shout out loud...

Where the mountains read you a story...

And the trees sway on music.. .

In a language only the heart can interpret...

A breeze, A still moment...

A rock, A dark secret...

Set adrift on endless wild dreams...

Where exists no boundary or limits...

No lines dividing the right from the wrong...

A heaven residing in hell...

Where the stories of the past...

Write the verses to the future...

Where everything is a mystery...

Always something new to discover...

Thats the place I often dream about....

At times when I am saturated...

Or at times when nothing seems right...

When nothing in sight seems clear...

Lies and deceptions are around...

Thats the place I want to run away to...

Because thats where my destiny lies...

One of my favourite songs..!

They don't lie when they say that there is only a thin line of difference between friendship and love....

My Best Friend VIII

"So do you think, all this while I have been a good friend?" I asked.
"Ummm, I don't know. You tell me, do you think all this while you have been a good friend?" Jai replied.


It was one of our house parties night and we were sitting on the terrace. Both of us were a little drunk. We hadn't spent a lot of time together lately, and there was lot I had to tell him. There were things that I was even hiding from myself.


I lay my head on his lap, "There is something I have been wanting to tell you from a while. There is something wrong with me, its like, I open my books to study and Sam's face appears out of nowhere; I concentrate harder and the words jumble up to form his name. And it doesn't stop here Jai, he is just everywhere. Where I go, whatever I think, he is there, he never leaves me."


"Shit, you love that guy...Like you really really love him..!! How did that happen Tara? I always thought you guys were not serious, I thought it was more of a passing affair", he replied.
"It was, it always was and it still is. We know we don't have a future together but at its about living the present than caring about the times ahead. Everything was sorted, but now, all of a sudden it feels like I won't be able to live without him. I have created a mess and I don't know how to get out of it", I said while a tear rolled down my right eye.


"So now what are you going to do", he said wiping my tear.
"I don't know, I think I will do what I always do when I reach at this point with Sam. I will break-up with him", I replied.
"No, absolutely no, this is not right. You can't keep running from your own feelings", he said holding my hand, "why don't you tell him how you feel."


"No, telling him how I feel would make things more complicated, and none of us are prepared for that. So either I continue with him  the way it is going on and keep suffering from inside or  I break up and let him suffer", I replied.
"I guess you should do what keeps you happy", he said.
"Thats the problem, as cliché as it may sound, my happiness now lies with him" I replied hugging Jai and in no time, I fell asleep in his embrace.

   

My Best Friend VII

"Are you free", I messaged Sameer in between my Stats class.

"I am always free for you jaan!", instantly came the reply.

"My classes get over in another half an hour, any chance you can bunk yours for today?", I typed.

"Cool, I meet you outside your college in half an hour, and decide where to go...Ps) I love you", was his reply.


45 minutes down the line, sitting comfortably in the car, we still hadn't decided where to go.
"Movie?", finally I said.
"As you say", he replied and in 5 min we were standing in front of Movie Time, Rajouri, "I will go check for the tickets and if we get any, you park the car and come in."
So, another 5 minutes and we were entering the theatre.
"Sit wherever you want" the guy checking the tickets says and winks at us.
"Lets take the central seats", Sam says while moving forward.
"So which movie are we watching?", I ask, but all I am thinking is, central seats... really!?!
"Umm I don't know baby, I just asked the guy for tickets for the next show, whichever it is..", he replies.
And then we take our seats.We sit right under a group of teenagers who also happened to be bunking college.I mean what is wrong with my guy. We are a couple at a movie hall sitting in the centre even when all the corner rows are empty...Wow...! And finally the movie starts, and its Blue...BLUE...! Just the movie I wanted to watch with my boyfriend..!
"You are staring", he said breaking my thoughts.
"No, I was just thinking about something",I said turning towards the screen, "and now you are staring."
"Hahahaha....I can't help it...you look very pretty today", he replied and continued staring. He gently slid his hand into mine, planted a soft kiss on my cheek and I could already hear the oo-aahs from the back row.
So right after the interval, Sam himself took me to a top corner seat and I could see the college group staring at us while we made way for the controversial seat, but I guess it didn't matter to us. He put his arm around my neck and gently brushed his fingers against my cheek.
"Do you know what sets you apart from others?", he asked.
"No, why don't you tell me", I answered, kissing his hand lightly.
"Well, its just the way your eyes shine when you look at me, the way I feel when you're by my side, its like a sense of completion. You may not really be perfect, but for me the fact that your hands fit perfectly into mine is just enough to know that you are the one for me", and with that he touched my chin lightly, came closer and slowly touched his lips to mine.
"So how did you like the movie?", he asked after the movie.
"Well I don't know, I missed most of the part after the interval", I answered teasingly.
"Too bad, then I guess we will have to come back tomorrow for the same show...", he said and we both started laughing, already thinking about tomorrow.

I will see you around...

So this is it

It’s the end of everything you’ve ever known

You’re headed off to the land of

Bosses and interviews

Everything you have yet to learn is waiting for you

It’s  the real life, it’s the real world

You’re finally living

This is your beginning, but

Now you’re stuck

With broken pieces of who you used to be when you were here

With me

And after every moment

You’ll forget to miss me

A little more, you’ll see

So now it’s over

You've lived so many years

And you have shed so many precious tears

Over memories

And friends you thought would last forever

And “nothing matters ’cause we’re together”

And every smile

And every laugh

And every thing

And everyone you know

So everybody come together

These last goodbyes we’ll all remember

forever. 

New World...

When I first saw u,

You were just a passerby

But gradually i realized,

You were someone for whom i cud die...

You came in my life,

Became a part of my soul'

Then dumped me as some trash;

Now my heart has a big hole...

You said the cupid had struck you,

he day you first saw me.

Then what happened later on?

Have your feelings suddenly gone?

We started as strangers

Became friends, then soulmates...

Now all this is past

I should have known nothing will last...

You dont deserve me.

Don't deserve my trust

You were such a liar, and so fake;

Your love's disappeared into dust.

Without you nothing's right.

Everything seems upside down.

Its a new world, I have to deal

Lonely, is the world I feel....

My Best Friend VI

They say love never happens for a reason… It just happens….Its not important for the person you love to be handsome,  intelligent or humourous, for all you know he could be a complete jerk, but still there is something in him, something that you end up falling for. The way he smiles at you, or out of the blue when he is staring at you, every compliment that he gives you or when he finds silly reason just to call you. He would say the stupidest thing in the world and it would seem absoloutely cute to you. You maybe having the worst day of your life and seeing him would change everything.

They say Love is blind…But I don’t believe it. I believe Love is not blind, it only sees what matters. Your shape, size or color don’t always count. But something else does. I think Love does has a reason but that reason is always undefined.

So when I fell for Sam (Sameer), I didn’t fall for his super-cute smile or his amazing body; I fell for something else. Something that I can’t really put in words. When I first met him, I felt an instant connection with him. Am not sure if I have mentioned this before but I met Sameer at British Council, four years ago. We were both forcefully enrolled there for an advanced creative writing course by our parents. It was a class of 32 boys and I was the only girl there. 32 handshakes during the introducion session, but  just one out of them was different, strangely the touch felt familiar. Who knew, a few years down the line, it would become impossible fo me to live without that ‘familiar touch’.

Sam wasn’t exactly perfect though, he came in with his own set of shortcomings, but like I already mentioned ,they hardly mattered. So what if he never gave me any gifts, I guess having him in my life was my biggest gift. We couldn’t meet often but then, whenever we met, every moment lasted a lifetime. He never introduced me to any of his friends, but so what, he completed my world, I never needed anyone else. He never gave me any reason to trust him, but then he never gave a reason to doubt him. So what if he was not exactly the guy of my dreams, he was the guy with whom I was living my dreams and what could be better than that.

Don't tell me who I am...

.

I’m a liar because I wont tell you everything

I’m stupid because sometimes I'm wrong

I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect

I’m a pushover because I like making people happy

I’m a loser because I’m a not friend with your group

I’m fake because I’m too nice

I’m weird because I’m not like you

I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry.

I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone

I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me.

I’m no fun because I'm not always hyper?

Don’t try to tell me who I am

Because I already know...

My Best Friend V

"If you had to choose between me and Sameer, who would you choose?", he asked.

We were on our way back from Khan Market and Jai chose to come in my car, even though it would take him double the usual time to reach home. We were a little drunk, mostly quiet and held each-others hand throughout the way. He was hungry and so we were heading to CP.

"Well, what if someday Sameer asks you to choose between me and him, whom would you choose? Who is more important to you?", he said reframing his question after I gave him a what the hell are you saying look.

"I love you both, I can never choose between you two. Sameer knows you're my best friend Jai, and nobody in this world can take your place, but he is equally important in my life and my life would be incomplete without him", I replied.

I knew I was being diplomatic, but I was just saying the truth. I couldn't believe it, my best friend was asking me to choose between him and my boyfriend.

I loved them both way too much to ever let them go for anyone else.

"Now hurry up, you just have half an hour to eat. I don't want to get late for home", I said as the car pulled up in front of Mc Donalds,

We got out of the car and he held my hand again.

"You go take a seat, I will order. You wanna have something?", he asked.

"Ice-cream", I said with a huge smile.

He went to order and I started looking for an empty table. Couldn't find any so I asked a couple if we could share their table, thankfully they agreed. Our seats were adjacently placed but we turned them to face each other. 

"You know I really care for you", he said sitting comfortably and locking his legs into mine," Now, I know you are in a relationship and I am not saying he is bad, I am just saying be careful. Don't trust him blindly, somehow I am not too sure about him."

Shit! is my best friend jealous of my boyfriend, I thought and smiled.

"You are smiling; I am serious Tara", he said looking into my eyes.

"Yes I know, and don't worry I will be careful", I replied acting serious this time, "now hurry up, we are getting late."

We finished our food quickly, got up and started walking towards the metro station.

"Wait, don't go right now. Please spend some more time with me", he said stopping me.

So we rested on the railings, he held me by my waist and we talked for another half an hour. We talked about everything under the sun from our friendship to our fights. That half an hour with him was one of the best times we had shared together. He slaped me lightly for everytime I had fought with him and quickly covered up by a planting a kiss on my cheek. He knew exactly what would make me smile and what would make me angry. And so he played with me, said something stupid to irritate me and then said something so cute that I couldn’t help but smile at him. Amidst all this we didn’t even realise that people were staring at us and I was already half-an-hour late.

"I love you", he said pulling me for a last hug and kissing me on both my cheeks.

"I love you too", I said returning the due and moving back towards the car, while he went into the metro station.

It was one of those days that I would never forget in my life. Memories that I would hold on forever. I don't know what the future holds for both of us, but I know whether or not we stay together in the later years, he would always remain my best friend. 

My Best Friend IV

"So when did you say your parents are coming back?", he asked.

"Day after tomorrow", I replied.

We had been talking for the past one hour now, my parents were away for the weekend and so we planned on spending it together. 

"I am eagerly waiting for tomorrow baby", I said all excited.

"Well am not exactly pepped about tomorrow, I am thinking about something else right now!", he said.

"What ?", I asked, shocked.

"Umm, don't get angry jaan...I know we are going to have a superb time tomorrow...But I am not as eagerly waiting for tomorrow as I am.......right now......for you to open the door", he said with a giggle.

"Ok, now I am confused...What door are you talking about?", I asked.

"I am standing in front of your house, and its freezing out here....So you mind hurrying and coming down to open the door", he said.

I ran to the window, because I just couldn't believe what he was saying. I was sure he was lying, playing one of his stupid games again. But there he was....

"What the hell, I mean wtf are you doing here...We were supposed to meet tomorrow", I said a little irritated and a little scared that the neighbors would see him.

"Well I thought I could surprise you."

"Well you have surprised me...but you forget that though my parents are away my grandpa is still home.", I replied.

"So what, by now he must be asleep. And as it is he sleeps on the first floor, we can spend time on the second floor, just you and me", he said teasingly.

My fear was gone, my urge to be close to him overpowered it and I rushed down to meet him.

"Come in", I whispered, opening the door and taking his hand in mine.

I quickly closed the door, turned and started moving towards the stairs, but he stopped. 

He pulled me towards himself and whispered "It was very cold outside and I can't move, so why don't you first give me a warm hug and let me melt in your arms."

"Man how cheesy can you talk at times", and with that I hugged him, hugged him tight.

A good five minutes in his arms and felt I like my world is complete.

"Ok lets go lover boy. Don't make a sound, keep following me and don't switch on the light at all", I instructed.

"Aye aye madame", quick came the reply.

We walked up quietly, holding each others hand. 

"Phew!, finally we are here..", I said relieved that we didn't make any noise that could wake up grandpa, "So whats the plan now?"

"Hmmm, the plans are evil sweetheart", he replied.

And just as I turned towards him, there he was, his face just an inch away from mine. Before I could say something, his lips touched mine and we kissed for what seemed like an eternity.

"So did you have nutella some time back?" he asked as our lips parted and laughed, "cause I just love its taste", and with that he pushed me towards the wall, locked me in his arms and went back to savoring the chocolaty taste.

My Best Friend III

"There is nothing called I-deserve-you , you-don't-deserve-me or you-deserve-someone-better in love. The fact that I love you ,I believe, is good enough that I deserve you and vice-versa", Sameer said not taking his eyes off me even for a second.
Well I guess this is called L-O-V-E, I thought.
"You make it sound so simple", I said.
He leaned forward and said, "Its because I love you baby" and gently kissed me on my forehead.
On and off, Sameer and me have been together for over 3 yrs now. For me it was like a fairytale. While I was forever mean to him, he was ever so patient. Despite the breaks in our relationship, this time when we got together, we knew there was something different.
"Why do you love me so much, you deserve someone so much better than me", this was one question I religiously asked him everyday and with all the patience in the world he gave me a different and a more convincing answer with each passing day. But after todays answer, I don't think I will ever feel the need to repeat my question. 
I knew I was fat and ugly, but know I also know that when he looks at me, he looks at something which is beyond my outer appearance. It was something which only he could see, or nobody else ever cared to, for I knew he was just the kind of guy every girl would dream of dating and yet he chose me.
"Time just flies away with you", he said as he opened his car's door for me, "I wish you could stay a little longer."
"I will try to come tomorrow", I promised him.
"Don't !", he said as he reached for my hand, "I like them tied."
While all guys like there girls with open hair, my guy preferred them tied.
"Call me as soon as you get back home", he said stopping the car a safe distance away from my home, "I don't like it without you."
I knew he really meant what he was saying. I gave him a hug, a quick kiss on his lips and rushed out of the car. Goodbyes are always so hard. 
I was still on the way when my cellphone beeped, I opened my inbox, already knowing the contents....... "I love you jaan".
                                                                   To be continued....

My Best Friend II

Safe in each others arms, we gently swayed to the tunes of Amazed (by Lonestar). I got lost in my thoughts and reached on the first day of college, back then I never thought that we....


"I never thought that we would become such good friends when I met you the first time", he said breaking my thoughts.
"Shit", I said,"I was thinking about the same day."
"Jinx, is not a new thing for us baby", he laughed and pulled me even closer.


So going back to our early days, Jai and me took a lot of time to become friends. It was not like we clicked the first time we talked; or if I think of it now, maybe we did. Since I joined college late, my class was already divided into various groups. There was this boys gang (to which he belonged), a weirdo gang(every class has one I guess!), a total girly gang and normal fun loving gang. Now I was not a very attractive girl, as a matter of fact I was fat, had braces and my face was full of pimples; still making friends was never a problem for me. And so I was in the fun loving gang.
I guess the first time I noticed him was during the DramSoc auditions. DramSoc was the most elite society of the college and so naturally everyone wanted to be a part of it. Jai and me were the only two to get in from our course. Rehearsals, meetings or competitions, we got a lot of time to hang out together. Since we were freshers, our main job was to carry props and take notes during the meetings. It was just one those rehearsals when we were carrying props from the store that he told me, "you know, you are just like my best friend from school, infact exactly like her."
Something happened that day, since then we always sat together in class, held hands under the desk during classes, drew cartoons on each others notebooks and called each other some 20 times a day. We would find reasons to spend time together, he would not play cricket so he could sit and chat with me. I would drive 5km extra everyday to drop him, just for those extra 15 minutes with him. Sooner than I knew he became an integral part of my life, and now I can't imagine my life without him.
                                                                                                                                     To be continued...

My best friend...

"I want to raise another toast", he said raising his kingfisher can, " to my dearest, no very dearest and  bestest friend. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I really love you Tara."
I knew he was high and the next thing coming up was a hug. And so it did.
He walked over to me, nearly falling twice on the way and gave me a huge hug. There was always something special in his hugs, I never felt like letting go. It's like when I am in his arms, everything seems alright, all my worries are gone.
"I love you", he whispered in my ear, "don't ever leave me", and then he planted a soft kiss on my cheek.


Life always seemed perfect when we had these house parties. Everyone drank as much as they could, danced the night away and slept just where they could find place to. And I was so glad every weekend we had one of such parties, where we could forget all our problems and just celebrate life.


He held me by waist and took me to the balcony. We just kept looking at the moon. There was no exchange of words, but it still felt like we were having the most amazing conversation. Not even for a moment did he leave my hand. He is not usually like this when he is drunk, instead he prefers to talk. But today was different, it was as if he was hiding something from me.
"Its our song, lets hit the dance floor", he said pulling me towards the room where everyone was dancing, without even waiting for my approval, maybe because he knew I would never say no to him.
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It's All About You...

Can't you see that love in my eyes,

The heart that beats for you-king size.

Can't you feel the freshness in the air;

Ignoring me is just not fair.

Where is the warmth you once exuded,

The smile for which on you, I concluded.

Where is the bond we both shared;

The understanding which is now marred.

The truth is what pains the most,

My heart is stuck on you like a ghost !

My feelings still haven't died out,

And, for the cracks there is no grout...

Why did you stop to think about me,

And filled your soul with all anti-me...

Why did you give those cold looks?

Isn't there any place for me in your nooks?

Is your heart pre-occupied,

Oh! you don't know I could've died...

Is your reception so weak,

You can't sense my thoughts are bleak

And the apex reason is you

Your ignorance, the sadness I can't subdue.

Look into my eyes for once I pray,

Your smile could almost make my day...

Cocktail Menu ;)

Since my friend Kunal thinks my blog has become more of a menu card now a days... I thought of taking this as a compliment and sharing some of the cocktail and mocktail recipes I learnt so far.
So here it goes...


The first one is a SCREWDRIVER !!!
As the name suggests this drink can act as a screwdriver and loosen the nuts of your brain..! :p


All you need to make this drink is :
45ml vodka, 
120ml fresh orange juice, 
A teaspoon lemon juice 
Some soda if u like your drink fizzy.


Mix the vodka, orange juice and lemon juice in a mixer. Pour the mixture in a glass over lots of ice and add some soda to make your drink more refreshing.


VIRGIN PINA COLADA for some reason has always been my favorite mocktail. Its an easy to make drink and pineapple has never tasted better then it does in this drink.


Ingredients are:
60ml coconut milk
120ml pineapple juice
Soda (optional)


Simply mix the coconut milk and pineapple juice in a mixer. Pour on top of ice, garnish it with a cherry and a slice of pineapple, and a dash of soda to make it fizzy.
To convert this drink into a cocktail just add 45ml of rum to the mixer with the other ingredients.


Long Island Iced Tea, due to a high concentration of alcohol is a very strong drink.


The ingredients are:
15ml Gin
15ml Rum
15ml Tequila
15ml Triple sec
Lemon cordial
Splash of cola or soda


Mix all the ingredients except for soda in a mixer. Pour it in a long glass filled with ice and garnish it with a lemon slice.


"Sex in the City" may have made the COSMOPOLITAN famous, but this cocktail was always cool.




What you need is:
30ml Vodka
15ml Triple Sec
15ml Fresh Lime Juice
15ml Cranberry Juice

Mix all the ingredients and pour it a Martini glass with a strip of orange peel on the rim.


CALIFORNIA SMOOTHIE is a very yummy drink for winters and very simple to make.


All you need is:
1 Banana, peeled and sliced
1 cup Strawberries
1/2 cup Dates
4 1/2 tsp Honey
250 ml Orange Juice


Mix all the ingredients till it becomes smooth and it pour in a long glass filled with ice cubes.


If you like the taste of a MARGARITA, you’ll love this frozen version.


Ingredients:
120ml Tequila
60ml Triple Sec
90ml sweetened Line Juice


Mix all the ingredients in a blender and pour it in a margarita glass over some ice.




I hope you enjoy making these drinks..!!!