My Best Friend XII

I couldn't sleep for a minute that night, and neither could I stop my tears. What I left in that party that evening was an irreplaceable part of my life. Someone who meant the world to me. Someone who taught me the real meaning of friendship, someone who was more than a friend to me, way more than a friend. I had a weird pain in my chest, I wanted to shout out loud. I wanted to hug him one last time, just one last time. But I knew I couldn't do any of it.


Sometimes it just takes a moment for friendship to change into love, or maybe to realize that what you thought was friendship, was actually love all along. The moment I saw him with another girl, I knew my first love was not Sam. But it was too late, I had already lost him, my first love, Jai.
You can call me orthodox, but I believe love only happens once. Surely Sam was wonderful guy, he kept me happy but unfortunately he was not the one I loved. I didn't want to lie to him anymore, I didn't want to lie to myself either.


I read somewhere, we can never get over our first love. He always has a part of our heart, even if we don't want him to. So I broke up with Sam and I told him the truth. Unlike everytime I broke up with him,  he took it all well this time. Said he understood me. He said he always knew Jai was more than a friend to me.


There are not always happy endings, some endings are disastrous. They break you, tear your heart apart and teach you, that life is not always a fairytale, sometimes there are no castles, no prince charming but you still have to move on.
I still see Jai in college, though we don't talk. He broke up with Riya a week after that party, admitted it was a big mistake. Sam and I are best friends now, he is dating a girl called Maya. They are kinda perfect for each other. And as for me, I am still single and there is nothing I regret about it, infact I totally love it.